A really good meeting yesterday. I have counters and am cooking today! I have however been indulging in cookies. Big ah ha moment I eat because I don't like being alone. I have to get comfortable being along again.

I was once before and I will find that grace again.

It took a long time, but I finally have some energy back, the Christmas boxes are in storage. My good will pile is growing. And I have finally put away most of everything in the bags by the door. My table is still covered, but I seriously have made progress. Still no clean counters in my kitchen so will have to stop and buy some frozen meals tomorrow. Slowly but surely coming back to life.

I went to my first OA meeting yesterday. It was very interesting and very helpful. Just acknowledging the fact that I see food differently from a lot of my friends. But apparently so do a lot of people.

Food wise I wasn't prepared for Saturday, the bus was extremely late so didn't eat until about 1:30pm and yup ate a lot that was not the best. Today was better not great, but getting there.

Have clothes in the laundry and hope to have enough energy to make cupcakes for the kids.

Well hoping my chicken sandwich gets here soon - see kitchen counter is still covered - cuz I am getting hungry!

Finally better. Exhausted today though, didn't do a thing, literally. I spent yesterday taking a friend out whose dad passed over the holidays. Came home exhausted from that and just got out of bed a few hours ago. Have to get my clothes and lunch ready for tomorrow though before I go back to bed.

Walked a lot on Saturday so don't feel bad about not walking today. Need to shower still tonight so I don't have to get up early and shower.

Ordered Chinese for dinner. Have about 4 meals out of the order so that is a good deal.

Found out my Aunt Jean passed away, she was a really nice lady. I remember her most from a picture my mom had, she had a really pretty smile and sparkling eyes.

Talked to a brother today because a mutual friend is gay and asked me to let it slip to some people we have in common, and I am so glad I am not in Michigan anymore. Ignorant people. My brother said he doesn't condone it but isn't going to run him over or anything like that. What a creep. This is the same brother that physically threatened me so guess I shouldn't be too suprised. Just so glad I am away from all of them. Ugh.

Let go

Last year's theme was Just keep Swimmin - thanks Dori!

This year's is Let Go..Let go of it all, the expectations, the plans, the fear, simply Let Go.

I head back to work tomorrow: I have a new plan to help let go, I have a magnetic pad on the frig and have printed everything I need to take for the day (what hasn't already been packed). I have dinner already planned for tomorrow and what to make for dinner for the next night.

See it is simple I just need to get back to simplicity and luxury. I decided to embrace some 500thread count sheets and pay more than I ever have for said sheet, but it is on sale, and I have a $20off coupon. So maybe smart luxury is the key!

Anyway wish me luck already thinking on Friday, may make dinner plans to save me from having to plan ahead for it and I think I will want a break then.

Happy 2012 everyone!

Dual Survival

Ok, I love that Dual Survival is doing a show in the Olympics. They just cut away on one of the guides going down a mossy tree trunk into a river, not exactly the plan. Too funny. I have been in the Olympics, and I am not a "camping" type of girl, there is always another way around. Oh well it looks good for the camera.

Maybe that is what my niece should do. Get a reality show, we all know that reality shows aren't actual so should be perfect for her. I mean come on quit the law firm because they are unethical, move out and marry some guy she knew for a month online. I wonder what happened to the house she bought. I hope my brother didn't co-sign for that house. Bad enough he probably is paying her loans. A different brother said she is going to join the FBI - I wonder if they know that! Especially with our family history and activities don't quite see that one working out. Well now that she and her hubby are back from Costa Rica I am sure she can start having puppies and use that as an excuse not to work. It is too bad she needs an excuse, but I guess after picking a private law school to find your Mrs. degree you don't have to worry about school loans etc. And grandbabies would sure make my mom happy in heaven. I am going to assume she still goes to church regularly so will never get divorced. Could get scary considering she didn't even know the guy for a year before marrying.

What we women learned from our elders, (or didn't learn) thank God I am single. Geez!

Good weekend. I went to Skylark with the A.P., then one of the teachers headed to Ballard gave me a ride home. Saturday was kind of a wash, but made myself go out with Ger to a movie, Moneyball, truly enjoyable. And definately better than Sat night TV. Then went to Laredos for a bite to eat. The food is ok, not great but I like the atmosphere. Today walked down the hill then I caught the bus to Ballard and dropped off soup for Jen and Darin. Then came back and bought what I needed for a pecan pie for Jamale for turkey day.

Also making plans to meet up with people at Burlesque Show on Friday night. Should be lots of fun.

Making myself go out to a gallery open tonight. It is in the neighborhood so I should be ok. Don't know why I have become a shut in again, but trying to break out of it.