Wonderfilled day today. 1st Accupuncture from one of the Urban Dealight deals. Then on the way home it was lunchtime and I had not eaten even breakfast so stopped at Chilitos. I had heard about it because a former student and his dad opened the place. The carne assada not so good, but the chicken mole was phenomenal. Then realized not enough time to go to Good Will and of course couldn't lift the monitor that Aaron promised me he would help me move, but he always had more important stuff and even when I told him how important it was to me to get rid of it he poo pooed it away, he was soooooo selfish.

Really glad Guy will help me with that. Anyway groceries lots of fruits and snacks and lunch fixins for work next week and this weekend. Then went to return the car and it was a downpour so I decided to get a manicure and pedicure. The salon was really not friendly and I won't go back there, but I was proud of myself because 2 nails looked bumpy and so I spoke up and they were redone. My toe color looks great, I wish I had been brave enough to get it on my fingers too! Then started to walk home and stopped at Four Winds and had a delightful conversation with the clerk there and he and his wife are starting a meditation group. It sounds perfect for the space I am moving toward. Then walked home. Oh my legs are tired.

Lots of walking today, walked in a rush to the car, timed it all wrong, but was thrilled as I was only 10 minutes late this morning for my appt.And I had called and left a message that I would be about 10 minutes late so it worked perfect.

Tomorrow after OA I am walking to Jen's. I can't wait to see that cute little boy! He is getting so big. Almost one now. Geez.

Chinese for dinner tonight. Have alot of leftovers for the weekend. That is also unusual and hoping it becomes usual. Just like I stopped eating the carne asada when I realized I didn't like it. The rice and beans were mediocre but good with the avocado and tomato. Didn't take the leftovers from that meal home.

Now comfortably at home, have to plan to get to the meeting on the bus tomorrow. It was late really late the first time I took the bus there so have to plan to get there earlier. A farther walk than I thought to so need to add extra time for that.

Walking, eating better, possibly meditation, who knows maybe I will start writing in my journal again!

I went for a walk today and it was beautiful. I have been trying to talk myself into going for a walk for a while. I mean I used to walk 4 miles 3 -5 times a week. Well this walk was probably half a mile round trip and that is ok. It is a start. It had no destination and was just to walk and along the way I celebrated beauty. Beauty in moss and dogs and the intertwining of leashes, the water, boats, and sky. This morning I asked to let go of my control of my desire to walk and look what happened. Thank you God/Universe/Holy Spirit/Mom & Dad/all you Saints and
Angels!

I couldn't figure out why I was craving chocolate tonight. I have really been hittin the carbs hard so I need to focus on curbing them. Not eliminating all together but curbing. Then that will lower the cravings. I have a good plan for breakfast lunch and dinner tomorrow so hopefully it will work. Universe, God, Higher Power, I am releasing it all to you, guide me in food choices tomorrow.

A really good meeting yesterday. I have counters and am cooking today! I have however been indulging in cookies. Big ah ha moment I eat because I don't like being alone. I have to get comfortable being along again.

I was once before and I will find that grace again.

It took a long time, but I finally have some energy back, the Christmas boxes are in storage. My good will pile is growing. And I have finally put away most of everything in the bags by the door. My table is still covered, but I seriously have made progress. Still no clean counters in my kitchen so will have to stop and buy some frozen meals tomorrow. Slowly but surely coming back to life.

I went to my first OA meeting yesterday. It was very interesting and very helpful. Just acknowledging the fact that I see food differently from a lot of my friends. But apparently so do a lot of people.

Food wise I wasn't prepared for Saturday, the bus was extremely late so didn't eat until about 1:30pm and yup ate a lot that was not the best. Today was better not great, but getting there.

Have clothes in the laundry and hope to have enough energy to make cupcakes for the kids.

Well hoping my chicken sandwich gets here soon - see kitchen counter is still covered - cuz I am getting hungry!

Finally better. Exhausted today though, didn't do a thing, literally. I spent yesterday taking a friend out whose dad passed over the holidays. Came home exhausted from that and just got out of bed a few hours ago. Have to get my clothes and lunch ready for tomorrow though before I go back to bed.

Walked a lot on Saturday so don't feel bad about not walking today. Need to shower still tonight so I don't have to get up early and shower.

Ordered Chinese for dinner. Have about 4 meals out of the order so that is a good deal.

Found out my Aunt Jean passed away, she was a really nice lady. I remember her most from a picture my mom had, she had a really pretty smile and sparkling eyes.

Talked to a brother today because a mutual friend is gay and asked me to let it slip to some people we have in common, and I am so glad I am not in Michigan anymore. Ignorant people. My brother said he doesn't condone it but isn't going to run him over or anything like that. What a creep. This is the same brother that physically threatened me so guess I shouldn't be too suprised. Just so glad I am away from all of them. Ugh.

Let go

Last year's theme was Just keep Swimmin - thanks Dori!

This year's is Let Go..Let go of it all, the expectations, the plans, the fear, simply Let Go.

I head back to work tomorrow: I have a new plan to help let go, I have a magnetic pad on the frig and have printed everything I need to take for the day (what hasn't already been packed). I have dinner already planned for tomorrow and what to make for dinner for the next night.

See it is simple I just need to get back to simplicity and luxury. I decided to embrace some 500thread count sheets and pay more than I ever have for said sheet, but it is on sale, and I have a $20off coupon. So maybe smart luxury is the key!

Anyway wish me luck already thinking on Friday, may make dinner plans to save me from having to plan ahead for it and I think I will want a break then.

Happy 2012 everyone!