The new boss has not worked for an organization this size and it shows...ugh... totally unrealistic. Oh well I will put his desires back to him and tell him to make a plan for next time!

Exhausted working and sick, possibly a sinus infection. Sweating right now perhaps a fever is breaking or I am just hot....

I have made so much progress yet feel so miserable and sad today. It isn't the 911 thing either. It is I don't know realizing I fell back into psyching myself out so much that I am afraid to get stgarted. And there is so much to do.

WOW!! Chedder bacon apple biscuits made. Dutch apple pancake made. Tomato soup made. Fried tofu, green bean thing made.

Week's wardrobe ready.

Wild....I was quite a laborer this weekend.

Knee feeling better, not all better, but a lot better.

4 more postcards done, but I think I sent a couple people two..oops.

Only 9 more to go.

And am up to day 9 on the WISH program...which is on day 16, but I am closing in!

Oh, I feel good.

A bit horny still, but good.

Been cleaning out my email. Getting rid of the emails from my non-fraud ex, aka the cheating and crazy ex. It feels good to be rid of him.

It is sad that I loved myself so little to settle for that type of man in my life. And hadn't learned enough to fall for a fraud.

Time to move on, getting back to my center. Finding my worth and not letting people like that in my life anymore. Time to let go of fear and leap.

Fortunes
I need to write a poem
for someone far away
male/female
straight/gay
wannabe/neverwas
hero or ghost
Do you still dream,
of merry-go-round horses
and pink cotton candy?
Or windy bluffs
so green and misty
the fisherman's sweater
is a necessity
not a fashion statement?
Tell me of you.
tell me grandiose lies
and help me dream.
Marta Sanchez

Man I have to find balance without my car. I was wiped out today and only went to the market and grabbed dinner. I realized I was gone from 7am to 9:30pm yesterday, and I am such a homebody that I like spending some time at home.