Another great day! If I can start getting my house in order it will be awesome! The food is good. The meetings are great. I have this little glow of happiness inside of me, and it feels good!

Been a while since I have checked in here. Loving OA. I learned shame is a human concept not a God concept. Learned or learning forgiving myself for staying in a violent/bullying work environment and letting my HP take care of the boss who allowed for it. Not liking carless situation, but grateful for Ger. She lets me borrow her car well some days 6 out of 7. Been able to save money, closing in on $3000. for a used car. But if I get through another year paying down my debt, may just take on a car loan. Feeling lonely tonight. Been reading a lot lately. Feels good. Was writing more about a month ago. Realizing my depression started creeping in close to November, and that is when the bullying started escalating. Awareness will help me get through. The OA outreach calls are helping me get through. My FB friends and cute and clever posts are helping me get through. I am grateful for all I have even for the feeling of loneliness!

Seems to be a movie summer - Chronicle, Avenger -love Sam Elliott, he is a man's man even as he ages still damn sexy, and Brave. What a great flick. Kudos for finally almost getting it right. At least the woman didn't need saving, well actually one of the women saved all the men, and one of the woman saved one of the other woman, now that you are confused, go see it - worth it!

Another good day. 3 more bags of food waste taken to the garage. 2 more bags of recycling taken to the bins. One more load of dishes done. And possibly unloaded very soon! Then filled up again. Then oh then I can mop! Yay! I was supposed to be saving money but after all that work needed a break so had half a turkey sub. Yay! I ordered the full thing, but am relatively full after the half oh and some onion rings. I will have cherries for my snack. This is kind of thrilling considering I had a salad for lunch and pretzals for a snack. Oh and pb & banana o wheat bread with oj for breakfast. What a great healthy day. AWESOME!!! And I have to cook the tilapia tonight before it goes bad, resting for about an hour then will cook up the tilapia. Yay!!! This is such a powerful day. I can feel my higher power surging through my veins and taking control again, or at least me not standing in the way for today!

So much done, so much to do. 3 bags recycling taken out, 1 bag food waste. 3 more bags recycling ready to be taken out, another bag food waste. Dishwasher emptied and reloaded. I need to buy garbage bags tomorrow for another garbage bag, probably not full, but maybe halfway. I still don't have counters, but I am a heck of a lot closer! Yay! I have my table again, and will be writing out my bills tomorrow. Wild! So much done. So much to do, but so much done! Even though a boring evening in, I have made a lot of progress.

It has been a long timesince I posted. I feel great. I messed up my feet, but other than that I love OA. Funny, well not really I have actually gained weight since joining. However, I just found out that my thyroid dropped extremely low. So unfortunately, now I have more weight to loose, but what a support system. These people are like me, they eat their feelings, they are learning balance everyday. So many success stories. My sponsor is amazing. Even in the midst of a break up, a move (resulting from the break up)and death of a childhood friend she is still abstinent. I failed on all accounts of those. Ok, maybe moving, but breaking up and death zing, add 50 pounds... Let alone the incredibly horrifying work trauma I experienced last school year. Thanks JB for causing me to have PTSD - yup according to the EAP counselor since the terror I suffered was so long I ended up with PTSD. Well my sponsor had a hostile work environment previously and guess what she stayed abstinent and got a better job. How can I miss with these people, with this philosophy of balance, with bringing back my higher power into my life. How can I fail? I can't. Today I called a local church to find out about using their facility for a Wed night meeting. I hope they call back soon. I need something in the middle of the week and getting to the UDistrict isn't really working for me. There were a couple girls meeting to read, but one is so controlling I have no desire to participate in that. Also I love the format of the Friday night meeting, but we are losing that space and they are looking at a first hill option. That definately won't work for me. So fingers crossed on the Wednesday night meeting in QA. Serenity Now - as the character Kramer said, or God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. As anyone in OA would say!

I went without sugar today! Yay!!!!! I am pretty sure I have a sponsor! Yay!!! My sinus infection is almost over! Yay!!!