I miss the fraud, he made me feel loved like no one ever has. He said absolutely everything right. It is as if he knew Aaron consistently walked ahead of me obviously to me wanting him at my side. He told me he would always be at my side making sure no one ever questioned that we were a couple. He had my heart and now I am alone. I have been alone. I have been in a couple and been alone. I still don't know which is worse. This is only when alone equals lonely. There have been times in my past when alone doesn't equal lonely and I hope I find that space again. Just has been a rough week that's all. I will make it though.