Been a while since I have checked in here. Loving OA. I learned shame is a human concept not a God concept. Learned or learning forgiving myself for staying in a violent/bullying work environment and letting my HP take care of the boss who allowed for it. Not liking carless situation, but grateful for Ger. She lets me borrow her car well some days 6 out of 7. Been able to save money, closing in on $3000. for a used car. But if I get through another year paying down my debt, may just take on a car loan. Feeling lonely tonight. Been reading a lot lately. Feels good. Was writing more about a month ago. Realizing my depression started creeping in close to November, and that is when the bullying started escalating. Awareness will help me get through. The OA outreach calls are helping me get through. My FB friends and cute and clever posts are helping me get through. I am grateful for all I have even for the feeling of loneliness!