Aaron emailed me tonight that I am one of the great ones, I emailed him back explaining to him since he dumped me and is out kissing on a skanky woman who he found on basically a sleeparound site that he didn't get to say that and that it is fucked up.

Go have your midlife crisis somewhere else cuz I don't want it around me!

Feeling sad tonight. Although I went to a poetry reading and Margaret had a killer poem, brilliant line about 27 bones in the hand.

Now sad. Feels done done with Aaron. Like I wrote I saw who he was kissing and yuck and considering the site he met her on double yuck. Triple yuck. Yuck to infinity. And yup I was with him for just under a year and a half. He says he is a Taurus, but I think he is a Gemini, definately two different people in him it seems to me....

I feel so much better now... I saw a picture of what A is hooking up with now and I can literally hear 4 of my closest friends in their wonderful judgemental tones "skank." He is definately not touching me since he has had his hands on that. Yuck!

I will be strong again one day. I am done with relationships I just don't have it in me to believe that there are any good men out there, clearly I thought that and look what happened.

I will be strong again, lonely but strong.

I feel so naive so stupid and so used.

Such a mental wreck right now....

I think the Lexapro is working, feeling a bit safer and less alone. Not so significant that Aaron broke up with me and broke my heart, more just numb now. Numb is good.