Tired

I am tired of being fat. I gained back so much weight after my surgery, and for the first time in several years caved into the holiday eating and feel grotesque. Aaron and I were watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and there was a demon in a round tub, that was basically layers and layers of fat and I thought that is me. I feel gross and plan to clean out the refrigerator tomorrow or actually today. I woke up and couldn't fall back to sleep so have been playing a video game that had me alone with my thoughts. I guess I have been avoiding pitching certain foods, as I know Aaron doesn't like to throw away food. And I get that. But there is no starving homeless person in my kitchen to eat the leftover pumpkin cheesecake so guess who does, the woman who doesn't want it and is depressed over her weight and ready to crawl into bed with a plate of whatever with a sheet over her head, yup me. Today is a good day to pitch the food that isn't being eaten and isn't healthy for me. Also I read of course too late even though I had it before the holidays - my Shape magazine that is that sugar in excess of our daily allowance of 6teaspoons(who knew) weakens cell walls and hence increases blood pressure. So outside of it not being good for a diabetic, it also is helping me stay on my hydrochlorathyazide. And chancea are I spelled that wrong - high blood pressure medicine. I definately need to make some chances and am looking forward to the results.

Merry Merry Everyone

The previous blog post was from Aaron, somehow blogger let him onto my blog instead of his own, oh well. I tend to agree with his thinking.

Anyway, he has a cold now. Has been in bed since late Xmas eve. We had a wonderful dinner which he felt fine at at Glo and John's who sort of adopted me in through there daughter when my mom was alive and sick. Anyway, it was wonderful. Gloria truly loved having him there and it almost felt like a sort of Norman Rockwell but with the right splash of naughty scene. Perhaps more like The Christmas Story as John kept calling Aaron Eric...and then Glo would say something using his name. It was awesome.

So Christmas my baby had a fever, but made it out of bed around 11am and we exchanged gifts. Yes mine are beautiful, red sweater, blue earrings, seahorsey fork thingie- we had gone to a store in Magnolia and discussed how rare it is to find a seahorse...and lots more. I think I surprised him with a couple things, like the Dusty 45's Shackin Up CD, and the Monuments Men book. I had bought him a Columbia City Bakery t-shirt, but it had bleach stains on it -weird, so I called the Bakery and they are letting us exchange it. His temp is down into the 99s so maybe tomorrow we will head out there, but his temp has been going up and down so not sure we will see.

I love the Columbia City Bakery. Yummmy, good note to go eat breakfast on...leftover Christmas tamales..YUMMMMMMM!

Important action and rights to be understood~~

1. Replace Treasurer Tim Geitner with Dr. Stieglitz as soon as possible!!

2. Read and hopefully support the "Declaration of a state of emergency in 2010, by and for homeless people in Seattle and King County" and "Help us to survive & solve homelessness" and "How to get there" on the inside of the front page of the current issue of "REAL CHANGE"; this is similar to a call to arms I wrote and sent into the Mayor and legislature about a year ago...

3. Do not support businesses that condone and support hostile work environments and serious harrassment like Swedish Medical Center, the now gone Broadway Safeway, the lies and set ups to ruin careers of some hard working employees at The Science Center's Fountain's Cafe (circa 2004). Interestingly, the Manager John Kipper and supervisor Robert ? of the Fountain's Cafe were fired. But not before those hard worker's careers there were terminated for fabricated reasons. The Building Managers Jan and Heather of Legacy Partners (circa 2008) who worked at the Seattle Tower also lied, kept people in fear and terminated hard working people for no credible reason. Hopefully the new Real Estate owners and building managers are more fair and honest!

Tolls

Tolls to Trolls

1) Angry threatening parent
2) Work
3) Relationships
4) Holidays
5) Health

Up Next

I need to finish Dummies on Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It has helped with A, and it is interesting to see how many people in life actually have sypmtoms of this. A coworker went through major family issues and upon learning this I readily see PTSD symptoms in this worker, but am certain she is not the type open to therapy. To bad, might help. Oh well.

Buffy - season 2 is due today. It is so fun to watch or rewatch the shows with Aaron as he never saw the series and always guesses at what is going to happen. He says he is 70% right, I say 50%. But he has such fun watching it, and his smile..ahhhh.

The lights are now on the tree, and we ran short of garland. So one more garland then all the fun ornaments tonight.

Yay!

Oh Chistmas Tree

Yes, the tree is letting it's branches descend outside. I am hoping it isn't so cold that the branches didn't say frozen up to themselves. It was relatively cheap and I had them cut it down so I could put it on my table, but I don't think enough was cut away so, now I have to rearrange a bit in my small space and make it work on the floor.

I don't really understand how the perfect size tree was actually $15. more and I paid under $15. for my tree. I probably should have had them cut more off when it didn't fit in the trunk. That will be my future tree test.

Anyway decorating it today and dancing around it to celebrate a friends good fortune.

Yay!!!! Christmas tree day. I don't think I have ever bought one this early any suggestions on how to have less needles fall?

Food for thought.

I am reading two books sort of at odds with each other, but both extremely good. The Tenth Muse My Life in Food by Judith Jones and American Idle: A Journey through our Sedentary Culture by Mary Collins. Both are non-fiction and I had to stop the Tenth Muse as American Idle is due at the library sooner.

So if you want to read about a young woman just out of college who ventured off to France after it’s occupation and found a career in food and publishing. This is the book for you. Warning: it may make you squirmishing when she talks about sweetbreads (are those guts or brains?) or drool when she talks about a loaf of bread and cheese in great detail. Let alone the challenges of a single woman in the late 40s making her way in the world. It continues back to the United States with a husband where she experiences everything from being targeted during the communist scare to having a boss a bit jealous of her success and her many triumphs along the way. I can’t wait to finish it.

American Idle is an autobiography about an athlete, a bicyclist who is in a life changing accident. Mary Collins goes from the daily workouts to a still life while she pushes through physical therapy and lives live with an ankle and hip that were shattered/damaged extensively. She starts her journey dicussing how our bodies are designed for the hunter/gatherer lifestyle. She proceeds trying to understand how/why Americans are choosing sometimes involuntarily to not move. Ms. Collins covers everything from her daughter’s organized sports to workers at a potato chip plant and a Harley Davidson factory. Her research also delves into government, urban planning and funding. Areas that honestly I never thought of affecting health. Her research covers income levels and cultures, churches and schools, and the vast array of gov’t programs and non-profit profit and how programs work or don’t. It is one day over due, ok 2 now, but I have to finish it and I am very close to done. Well worth the late fines, but my apologies to the people waiting for the book.

Books to read

American Idle: A journey through our sedentary culture by Mary Collins

and

The Tenth Muse My Secret Life in Food by Judith Jones

Good night...

So far so good

Made it to work the car sounded fine. I am taking it in for its oil change today. Hopefully that will do the trick.

No worries

Well after my work out, I went and paid my car insurance, went an picked up Aaron, we ate and were heading out to the movie and the car died. Now this has happened before, when my car has certain lights come on and says hey I'm tired now, and starts up in the morning. So fingers crossed that it starts up in the morning. I had planned to take it in for an oil change tomorrow which usually makes the car all better as well. The plan is to get a new used car this summer so come on car I just need you to last a little bit more....