Here is to an injury free 2011. And keeping everything in perspective - murder vs. harassment. No need to fret as much as I do!!!

Wishing joy, freedom, peace, abundance especially abundant laughter and incredible sex for everyone in 2011.

I am so ready for a new year. I had a year of injuries and am ending on that same note. I absolutely dread going to work where I am terrorized and have to wait for HR to decide if I am being bullied or not. Fortunately I have a doctor's appt so that should help. I have been dreading going back to work since yesterday and literally am just afraid. I just wish my coworker would blow up again in front of anyone besides me. She is so unstable I really feel for her children.

In the meantime I work in an unsafe environment. I really have to commit to my studies so that I can start school next fall. I wonder how much debt I will have paid down by next fall. I just want to go to school and not have to deal with psychos. I also want yes to find a nice available intelligent affectionate sexy man who loves me and only me.

But pipe dreams....maybe that is the theme for 2011 Pipe Dreams.... why not, has to be better than my reality.

Don't know what to do with myself. My knee is healing. I could clean, oh what fun. So am watching stupid TV. I just got back from the library so maybe I picked a good book this time. Hopefully one will pull me in, off to turn some pages.

Ok, had to try a different take - Russ Columbo and Marilyn, Call Me Darling

Ok, try it again one more time- Call Me Darling

Call me darling by Peggy Lee

This was sang on Christmas by Phyllis and oh we all loved her piano playing and this song. And yes it was sang first in English, then in German then in French. Got to love that!

Besides the new gym membership, and the little stuffed chimp from the zoo I am giving myself me. Me free of any encumbrances especially those involving attachments/relationships with men. I want to get back to that contented state - not one of these fifty- where I actually had men plural vying for my attention. And this time I will stay focused on me. I think this needs to be an annual gift I wonder what else I will get myself next year, besides renewing my gym membership. Maybe a day at the spa, or signing up for college to begin a new part of my life. Yay Christmas! Yay me! Yay!

Why do men pretend they are ready for relationships when they really aren't. I mean come on we are not in high school anymore.

What a night. Went to dinner with Guy and then Candy Cane Lane. He was in a major hurry so we drove through it quickly. Then hanging out at home, talked to Aaron, then Joani. Then Ger called and met her at a restaurant and chatted with her while she ate dinner. She loved her St. Dymstha (I am sure I spelled that wrong)like I thought she would. Then I took Ger to Candy Cane Lane and we walked through. It was great. There was an igloo with boots sticking out and a Christmas hippo and well a whole bunch of other stuff. It was totally cool. Felt my blood sugar dropping so after dropping off Ger grabbed a snack and am not ready for bed.

Disappointed in a guy I was talking with, just another unavailable man. As they all seem to be. Life in that arena SUCKS!!!

After an incredibly rough week I had an incredible day. I finished up my gift buying and thought I would price one more item a Zoo family pass. When I was there a woman gave me her family's extra ticket so I got to go in for free!!!

The first thing I did was feed the penguins for $5.00 I got to feed 4 penguins. I met two who were mates and a third Raul who was definately a hungry guy. Then one of the volunteers walked me to the snow leopards and we saw the kids playing one was on top hunched, stalking and pounced on the unsuspecting other one. Then I made my way through the lunching organtans, and saw one elephant. He/She was gigantic. I love elephants.

On my way back one of the chimpanzee type of monkeys was out, it has the gentlest face, oh I almost forgot about the orthologist talking about the barn owl, hawks, falcons and vultures. Then when I was leaving the organtans were playing a sort of peek a boo with what looked like a burlap coffee bag. My plantar fascitous started acting up as I was leaving. And it hurts like a bear now, but I got my shopping done and am going to make truffles later once I rest my foot a bit!

Yay!!!

So I am talking to a new guy on-line but are conversations have been minimal. He is a smarty pants which is such a turn on and hmmm just wish he was available but as a single parent and a job that takes him out of the country in very remote areas is minimal. Probably best that way keeps things nice and slow.

Nice night at Mulleady's in Magnolia last night then water aerobics lunch and Harry Potter today. Nice weekend even got a little cleaning in. Need to buy the kiddos gifts for Monday and make the flourless choc. cake. Actually twice once for my dear wonderful Michgander friend/sister. Also need to find the cool packy thingies that keep things cool. Yeah!

Feeling ugly and gross tonight. Bloated. Too many carbs. Ugh. Swimming tomorrow that will help me feel better. Come on tomorrow.

I Feel Love by CRSB