Threw out all the junk food. Great mtg tonight.So grateful. I have to use the tools.if I truly want recovery I have to detach and turn it all over. I have to humbly ask my HP to let me live and honor the vessel he gave me all of it. My mind needs challenges and beauty. My heart and soul need love peace and passion. My body needs strength affection and nourishment. Program first. Noone like that man from my past deserves my time. If he calls back I will tell him honestly that I do not care to communicate with him and not to call me. I deserve the other type that contacted me and may come and play guitar at the bbq. But he needs to let me know too that he is interested.I am worthy of that