Spasms

So almost better. I only had about 5 minutes of back spasms during the day, then just a dull pain. Then in the evening had a couple more. The kicker was when at Whole Foods with the boy and had a major one. I was ready to drop everything and go home of course we didn't and checked out. I went home and grabbed the ice pack while I took my other medicines before taking my major painkiller, because I don't like to put all those drugs in my system at once.

Yet here I am dulled by 600mg of Ibuprofen going to a minor work out after my job. Then going home to ice and heat again!

Blogging

I just love Angela's blog. She writes how I feel so many times. Click on the Shape of Secrets at the left.

I hate being in pain. I felt ok Sunday and then Monday sitting at my desk job for 8 hours, almost put my back to the state it was in Friday. I spent 3 hours alternating heat and ice and could only walk 2 blocks after wincing in pain. Hopefully a call into the doctor will allow for something during the day as my painkiller is strictly for before going to bed, cuz after it makes me all dopey it then knocks me out.

I shouldn't complain though, my sister just had a hysterectomy and the surgery went fine. But having one of my ovaries out had me in a constant awareness/state of pain for 3 days. I had an amazing caretaker (in the hands of a good friend and her nanny) so healed nicely.

Oh well send Xanex thoughts... or Valium energy, anything that helps me move.

Pain

So I was stepping out of the shower and pulled something. I have a pain in my left sides around my back. The first thing I thought was Oh no another cyst. The next thing I thought was Oh no appendicidis. Both my mom and sister had appendix isssues and had them removed in their early 40s. Ugh. I understand it causes a lot more pain than what I imagine I have going on so positive thinking. Everyone cross their fingers it doesn't turn out to be that.

Weird

It was the library police. But they are normally alerted by the librarian and the librarian was trying to tell them they had the wrong guy, but the library police wouldn't listen. Great. So much for safe havens.

It Continues

So Aaron in his past tried to get a company to remove asbestos from a work area, was labeled a trouble maker, and basically driven to a stress level that would have fell a horse. Then being a naive soul who had seriously no parents to impart wisdom, put up several notices about seeing a cop accept a bribe. Oh yeah, he actually signed his full name on these. Now his life is difficult. Today in what many of us see as one of the safest refuges around a cop (still trying to confirm SPD or Library security) advised him that whenever he is in the library more items are stolen from the library. The description worked off us was black hair, and then they had a wrong date of birth on whatever information they had. The librarians tried to speak up, because yes he is an avid library user. And when a bus broke down and he was stuck waiting for another lost a huge book with a huge price and has been making payments to the library every week. So yes a guy who makes payments on a book that he lost and told them about, does that sound like a theif to you. I can't imagine his life. He has had a girl set him up who decided she was mean to his friend and after spending time in jail/holding cell the police realized the girl was crazy and let him go. Apparently she had done the same thing to a business man with money who let them know her story. And yes I do believe rape/abuse happens, I know Aaron and I also know there are sick people out there either not taking their medicine or not on the right medicine. I just wish my guy who writes Congress weekly who has taken in quite literally an alcoholic homeless bum who he thought would change, to helping another couple (all this in a studio apt.)who he helped find housing. This is absolutely absurd and something needs to be done, when the library gets involved with false accusations we are in serious trouble. I expect it from the corporations police and politicians, but come on the library. Crazy.

I must have really missed my guy last night, because I woke up sleeping at an angle, practically horizontal across the bed. Guess I was looking for him. Bummer.